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Im usually excited when on NewGrounds, however recently i have lost interest with the site and its forums. especially now that i am able to enjoy more mature sites, which entertain me more then this one.
sure ive had fun here, but i can no longer have fun here.
theres too much complaining, too much love for what i hate. i don't belong here any more, nor do i feel like my time on this site is well spent.
So i will leave this site completely and change all my focus to other, more important things like school, friends, games, life and perfection.
maybe one day you will hear about my success or great failure.
My name is Maxell Xallow Zeloweaver, merry christmas, and thank you for your time.
Ive just created a new Youtube channel with game related material and since im such a whore ill link to it here.
Well clearly people dont care about my amazing life so screw it.
on friday i am getting a camera, that is all
For the past few weeks i have been taunting karma.
not going to school, pissing people of for no reason and creating chaos where it was non-existent.
well today i recieved my punishmeant, and its killing me.
my best friend had started talking to me online and told me about her skin condition, which unfortunately is going to kill her in 3-5 years.
after 2 years of knowing her i had no idea of this condition, had i known i wouldnot be with her.
this is karmas ultimate revenge, i lose my only friend because i didnot deserve her
she was always a perfect person, she would always encourage me to make friends and enjoy life.
but now because of me her doom is iminent
now i know i have to get my life back to normal, karma will only keep killing my loved ones until i finally give in to his demands.
this is going to be hard, NG. but i know i can do it
I have always liked the idea of karma, the idea that the bad will be punished and the good rewarded, has always given me faith that as long as i live as a good person i will have a good life.
well, after a week i have seen the negative and positive effects of Karma and its toll with my life.
Lets begin with Thursday:
i was awoken by my mother, angrily telling me that we had to go to a meeting, i complied and we shortly left (walking to the location as our car was broken)
once their we had a discusion about my school attendance (or lack off) and how we could get me back to school (despite the fact that i actually returnted the day before). and after a hour we came to a agreement, a 20 day plan starting next week, consisting of me getting to school at at least 10:00 AM for the next 20 days.
of course, i agreed
after the meeting my mother and i started walking home, having a delightful discusion about cameras.
once we got home my mother decided to look up a shop online and see if it had a decent TV (because my one was fucked) she eventually found a cheap one and ordered it.
the next day i didnot go to school as the contract didnot start till monday
i wake up and contemplate going to school, my mother keeps telling me to hurry up but in my head im thinking of why i should go and if its truly worth it.
soon my mother relises that the TV had arrived at 6 in the morning but since no one was awake it was sent to the post office.
i see this as karmas gift, i go to school and i get my new TV.
now heres the kicker, in order for my mother to obtain the TV she must drive her car, which is illegal.
but since its not too far she takes the risk
had i not gone to school my mother would still go to get the TV via car, but she would most likey have gotten caught as karmas payback.
thankfully though i went to school.
on the way there i checked my time table and noticed that if i got there now i would have a fairly shit class, so i decided to walk around the block for a hour untill next lesson started.
i finally got there and went to gym, it was fun for the first half but eventually it got boring.
this was when we had a test, involving thowing and catching balls, i went well for the practure but when it came to the test i did terrible, i got 11/10 but it still wasnot the best i could do.
i left gym depressed and headed for the office, hoping i got go home if i acted as if i had heat stroke (it was a fairly hot day)
so they called my mother to get me but considering she couldnot use the car it seemed like a pointless idea
so they told me to walk home. despite me being sick from the heat they thought it would be a perfect idea to send me out in it, while also having to cross roads.
i make it home and soon my day ends (only now i have a new TV)
today i stayed home, feeling too depressed and dissapointed to go.
and if i can, i wont be attending tommorow either.
Karma will probably give me more hell tommorow if i stay home, but even if i do go i will still feel outcasted.
its not worth going.
my life is fucked either way, i go and i feel like a loner or i stay home and accept the consequences.
Today is Monday and currently it is 6:00 PM but it is the tail of earlier today that i would rather describe.
i awoke on the lounge and after 1 hour decided to get up and get ready to go black to school ( you see my mothers car was broken and i had to walk to school, in the freezing cold with a back-pack on my back) hell ensure from the start
so im walking and i start thinking, is this what i want? do i want to go back to that inferno know as school.
it was at this point that i contempated either walking back home or running away, forever. unfortunately my body acted quicker then my mind and by the time i could have made my escape i was already walking in the door, i was at school and walking into the greatest day of my life
eventualy i went to english and after that gym, this is where my day got interesting.
after a few embarasing but fun work outs we all got ready to do a test which involved running back and fourth on the gyms ground.
i was going ok at first but i was tired shortly, so i sat down to watch the event, firing up as it were.
then my ex girlfriend (kind of) started cheering on this other guy, and not for the first time. i wasnot broken hearted but i was in pain, she didnot even try to talk to me even though i was in a talking mood (which im never in) thankfully though i was able to talk with a few kids and i think i did that well
so then it becomes last period, im in maths doing my work and the girl that has been calling me a stalker decides to walk past the rooms windows and flip me the bird.
i was genuily pissed off that this woman would steryotype me, make me fear walking home behind her and then attack me in that manner (plus her friend tried to block my way earlier but i swifted past)
but of course thats little miss paranoid bitch for you
at the end of the day i start walking home and out of nowhere this black kid tackles me.
but thats life i guess you cant have happiness without sadness, destruction without existense.
love without hatred
i hope tommorow is better